I loved 2019. My resolution was to say yes to everything and it made the world of a difference in how I spent my days. 2019 was a year of self-reflection, growth, and mental independence. I feel like I've grown into a stronger, more resilient, braver gal this year and I'm proud of where I am as a person. I'm not as shakeable (???) as I used to be.
And I'm ready for 2020. 2020 will be another year of completely new changes in my life. A new school, moving out, and working more on growing into myself. Change and personal growth never truly stops, but I love that about life, even though it can be painful and terrifying.
I want to embrace every aspect of myself this year. I want to be so boldly and obviously myself, that it is unquestionable who I am and what I stand for. I want to not be afraid of making decisions or taking risks. I want to always choose the choice that makes me slightly more afraid. I want to be completely sure of myself and my decisions. I want to be the kind of headstrong person with outspoken opinions. I want to be bolder and brighter. It's always been a goal of mine to be a role model to younger girls, or really, anyone. I will not shrink myself down in order to fit into someone else's comfort zone or standards. I will be as I am. I will not mold to other people. I will not try to be liked by everyone, because that would require me to bend my personality and pretend to agree with things I may not agree with. I will be the kind of person that makes the people around me feel comfortable in their own skin. I want everyone in my presence to feel welcome, accepted, and cherished. I want to be the kind of person that takes no bullshit or condescending comments from other people. I will not let anyone speak down to me nor others around me. I want to focus on not tearing people down behind their backs, but instead, building them up. I want to be as real as possible, being open about every aspect of my life and not concealing the dark or ugly parts. I want to be defiant when necessary and have an unquestionably strong personality. I want to love others and myself intensely. I want to be a safe space for everyone who knows me and be a selfless giver. I know I have what I need, and I know that others may not have what they need. I want to give, give, and give some more. Materials are replaceable. I want to go out of my way to help people when I can. I want to radiate confidence, acceptance, boldness, and an enthusiasm for life. I will be unapologetic and entirely myself and help others around me do the same.
OH MAN and I would love to keep working on hobbies this 2020. I want to hop back onto the piano and begin playing again, push myself to do open mics, work on music, journal more, write stories, paint more, spend more time outside and putting my phone away, less time on social media, and simply just being more present. Phones have a sneaky way of stealing our lives away, and I don't want to give my memories and life to a phone screen any more! I'm excited for another year of being more real with myself and the people around me. Another year of growth and bigger ideas and even bigger leaps. Life is too damn short!
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